The day has arrived...

I knew this day would come eventually.  For the first month I absolutely dreaded it.  It made me sick to my stomach to think about it.  I agonized, dreaded and was anxious.  Then over the last month I have just come to accept that this day would finally arrive andt here was nothing I could do to change it.  Well, the day has come - Julia has lost a contact. 

I feel like I am handling it quite well.  I could scream and stomp my feet and go on about how life isn't fair - "Why Julia?  Why me?  There goes another 150 bucks we don't have.  This isn't fair."  But I'm not (well, maybe a little inside - but no complaining on the outside!).

I think I had prepared myself that she would lose some and to stress out is not going to make the contact magically appear.  She lost it somewhere at daycare.  I looked in her pack and play, the swing and the floor area where she plays.  I couldn't find it.  And since it isn't my house, I couldn't keep searching for hours and hours.  I had to let it go.  I just left - leaving instructions that if she found it to put it in the case I've left there.  I am not going to let a miniscule piece of silicon hydrogel ruin my day, my week or my life (or Julia's life).

I called the Dr. and he said he may have ordered a spare when he ordered the first one.  If he did, I can come pick it up tomorrow.  If not, he will order one.  We already had an appointment scheduled for Tuesday so we can get a new one then.  If she needs a new prescription on Tuesday, it will be under warranty and we can exchange it. 

I guess this is just part of the initiation into the "eye club."  Just one more thing to take in stride. 

I worry that she is going a few days without a contact and without patching.  The doc said that her eye will probably turn without the contact - and it really does.  She looks really cross eyed without it.  But again - nothing I can do.  I am choosing to remain calm and let this bump in the road roll off my back.  I may not do this next time, but for now. we are okay - even with a lost contact.